Harder Than I Imagined…
Friday, July 14th, 2006*takes a deep breath*
My job needs to start NOW. It’s only been 5 days since I moved, and I’m having 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th, 20th thoughts about everything. In my mind, there is no turning back now. I’m on my own forever, now, and that is very scary. Too much free time to think isn’t very good. I constantly worry if I’m doing the right thing, or what is right. Little things have not gone according to plan that I really shouldn’t worry about and are stupid..but it doesn’t help. I thought buying a nice, new, big, comfortable bed would make me feel more at home, which it sort-of did but not really. I subscribed to SBC Yahoo! DSL, and it’s slower than it should be (averages 300k up when it should be 1200k or so up). If I want to visit anybody, it’s at least a half our drive. I bought rabbit ears hoping to be able to save money and watch off-the-air televsision. I’m in Oakland, so you’d think all the San Francisco television stations would come in clear, right? No. I hardly receive anything. I partially blame that on whatever the hell is upstairs. Reception is slightly better when nobody is home in the apartment above me. Also, parking arrangements here are a bit screwed up. I have a space, but was really hoping to use a garage. So far that doesn’t seem feisable due to the arrangements of the spaces around me. Depending on how others park, I may not be able to get out of the garage. It’s partially why I rented this place. My Berkely boss has been on vacation for god knows how long, and I haven’t signed any paperwork for my new job yet which makes me nervous, as well. I’ve also been thinking and have been realizing that I like the South Bay better than the East Bay. It’s still pretty cool up here, but the more I think about it the more I prefer the South Bay. It’s probably because that’s where I was born and partially raised (until I was 10). It just calls for me. I know I wouldn’t have this problem if I was kept busy. Living alone isn’t the most fun, either (can be quite boring and quiet, although I won’t do the “random person-off-the-street roomate” deal…just too weird to me). I shouldn’t have taken so much time off inbetween jobs!!
On the brighter side of things, I saw Brianna last nightermthismorning. We were bored so we went driving around. We really didn’t have a purpose, so I made her check out my old elementary schools (2) I went to and old houses (2) my family and I lived in when we lived in the South Bay. Not much has changed in Sunnyvale or Cupertino since the last I remember…except in Sunnyvale they built these bigass apartment buildings on one of the streets near my old house, so it totally threw me off. Then we ended up driving through the Santa Cruz mountains and seeing a great view of a big portion of Silicon Valley at night. That was very cool. More driving…more driving…drove through Santa Cruz at like 2 AM via the very-twisty-and-sometimes-smaller-than-one-lane highway 9…then back home. It was very fun. I enjoyed every second of it.
